If someone tells you that they think that seeing there potential spouse only 4 days a week is enough, what would you think? Hurt, disappointed, or would you be OK with it? What other emotions would you feel?
For me i felt like my head was going to come off. I was not mad, but hurt. Hurt that he said that. (This was done over the phone. yes! the phone!) I wanted to see him more. How did he expect us to live together if he is fine with seeing me only 4 days a week (mind you that this is an estimate of 4 days, its usually 2 days a on the weekend since i started school) Is there anything wrong with wanting to see each other more. In my head i thought wow you think 4 days is enough then do you really want to live together and marry me? After he told me this I didn't know what to think or say. So we left it at that. i told him that i didn't know what to say and we hung up saying a very unheart felt "i love you". About 3 sec pass before those words made me cry so hard that it was hard to breath. After i calmed down a little that thought would not go away. I new it was not moronic to think that way. What does any one think when they are told that. There is always a chance of losing each other. That's what i felt there and then. Although i didn't want to lose him i just felt like i was losing him. It was that thought and the thought of not living together or marrying each other was like an actual knife in my heart. Pathetic? no. Life? Yes. It has been longer then 2 years since we dated, but it was not till recently that i thought that we would not be together forever. Who gave me that thought? It was my boyfriend himself.
PS. do not judge him or me while you read this entry. This is not the whole story. It would take to long to type the whole story out and this is based on my verrrryyy emotional self right now.
xoxo Nancy
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